So ive been thinking alot about life.. and mainly what i fear in it. i have alot of common fears that others have but only to a mild extent such as i dont like being alone really ever so im almost never home, but my one main fear is that of death.

now i feel that everyone in some way is afraid of death. People could argue their points and id like to hear what they have to say but when you boil down to it the fear of death stems, atleast in my mind, from the dislike of pain, people obv dont want to get shot, undergo surgery, or have pain inflicted on them and in my mind i believe we all fear that due to it could cause our life functions to cease.

back to my point i fear death, but not as others do, no, my fear of death is pretty bad some times it keeps me up till 5 or 6 am, i dont think that im not going to wake up, no my fear of death is different. i dont fear dieing or how im going to die, i fear more of what happens after i die. i constantly fear that it may just be a perminate sleep, that my whole being just ceases and even as i write this on tumblr the thought of it shocks me to the core.

i used to be religious, so i always believed id go to either heaven or hell, either or would be better than just eternal abyss. its hard for me to come to a conclusion on what i believe will happen, id like to believe that id be re-incarnated as another being but who knows. if anyone has any ideas on what they believe will happen after our time on earth is over your most welcome to share them with me, in fact i incourage it.

on a related note, i stated that i used to be religious, i must admit i was verry happy during this time, but i found my own beliefs on the subject that i feel is better and makes more sense to me.

till next time dudes and dudettes

hey tumblr. i havent been here in a while, man weve had some good times i remember that one time with jeff bridges.. and that other time with protien.. yeah well ive been a way for a while from this tumblr thing. why you ask

COLLEGE… dumbass..

just kidding.

your not dumb..

unless your mike regan in disguise…

are you?

i knew you werent

anyway yeah ive been bustin my fanny with college stuff aswell as working on my acting career i have a few opportunities coming up for diff roles and stuff ill keep you posted

anyanyway ive been keeping up with my jeff bridges movie marathon new years resolution thing… yeah its a thing

i got ten movies out of his 68 down!

WOO

WOO

WOO

im out of breath now so i leave you with this

 Its Jeff Bridges wednesday! and i havent posted in a while but ill NEVER miss a day to preach the glory of the great one

today i wouldnt stop talking to various people about how i was to view the great JB in the new Tron movie and what better way to see his glory than in IMAX 3d??

NO BETTER WAY

well i guess if you he was there with you thus ud be able to watch him watching himself in IMAX 3D which would be a fun story to tell others but its besides the point.

today was a routine day i went searching for an xmas gift for my gf but to no avail

casey was able to find what she needed tho which was good

it was also fun riding in the convertable

then i hung out with the gf for a while we played with my cousins and helped my gma babysit and such then i cooked for her and we watched year without a santac Claus

normal day

may Bridges be with you

yeah he won a golden globe why u ask? CUZ HES EFFING JEFF BRIDGES

so today i woke up in the morning feeling nothing like p diddy

 [worst line of a song ever]

i called nolsons dad and we looked at a car.. were inconclusive about weither or not its a good car yet so im gonna call a mechanic tomorrow

after that my cousins came over and decorated cookies

i then ate cuz i didnt feel good and nolson picked me up

we got our tron tickets and our friends picked us up to go to hampton to get the official icp drink even though i hate icp with a burning passion

we even had to listen to a few icp songs i wanted to shoot myself

but we get to hampton and nothing was open so they all ran on the beach as i took a piss break

we then got taco bell and thats all that really happened today

i may go lift weights idk if its a thing

PROTIEN!!!!!

so yesterday was my normal day for the exception that i looked at a car that may be promising im not sure

anyway its red

i like red

any-anyway i worked yesterday

any-any-anyway i told a couple the phrase that is the title of this post and thats the one thing i thought of to name this

later

 so today i woke up at the usual 12:40 pm… typical so anyway i go on facebook…as usual and nothing exciting happened so i go downstairs and decide to make chicken nuggets.. as i do so my gf calls me to state that shes picking me up to go shopping before i go to work i said sure and everything then after we hung up i thought

“shit.. will i have time to nom my nuggets?”

i did

oh and i also ripped my pants i was wearing for work so i bought tight ones at bobs

similar to those their comfortable, i kinda want to get more, idk if its a thing tho…

So today i woke up

two seconds later my gf called me

she asked if it was ok if she picked me up in an hour and i said sure but i gotta clean the bathroom first

so i cleaned the bathroom..

i also got dressed because i didnt want to be naked today.

so i ended up going on a journey with her to go do some xmas shopping that my gma couldnt cuz were good kids and like to help her out.

anyway i ended up getting a gift for her brother and got 2 thirds of the gifts my gma wanted to pick up today. after that we went to my gfs house and took her brother and sister to newbury comics and 5 below. i ended up picking up coraline cuz i heard it was good and i also got a kiss cd as well as a hat it was pretty fun.

oh and as for the title

i watched tron today with my gf whose name btw is nolson.

anyway tron further cemented my burning love for movies that feature Jeff Bridges. he is a god

btw i may feature pictures of jeff bridges on many wednesdays to come idk if its a thing yet